Tillman
Posted
Beware this Negative Wolf in Sheep's Clothing Christian Forum
I joined the Crosswalk Forum site on Feb 12, 2025 and was there for over a year. At first, I enjoyed it. I shared my views which are often outside the box. But I eventually found myself targeted by specific members who hounded me to no end, who treated me like I was the enemy, some of whom were granted Admin abilities which prevented me from ignoring/muting them outright. I was treated as a heretic instead of someone with a different opinion. My arguments, points, return questions, and Scriptures would often be ignored, and I would be accused of sharing only half truths or half the Gospel while they would reply with the same Scriptures and answers again and again like a child putting their hands to their ears and screaming, "LALALALALA". . I was outright disrespected multiple times, mocked, hovered over in a sense, and at one point I found that some of my posts were being edited without my written consent, though I was messaged to inform me it had occurred with whatever ridiculous reason why. I also found that some of the people I was responding to would edit their own posts to sound less offensive from time to time after I commented on their tone. But they did not change all of their responses. There is a hostile, negative tone to many of the characters who semi regularly reside there, both with Left and Far Right leaning politics but mostly Far Right. In the year I was there, I experienced a great deal of nonstop hostility and found myself often targeted by the same group of people who did not share my views. But I also found that during that time, some of the people who targeted me would drop off while new members would suddenly appear and soon replace them with the same intensity and similar voices/tones. So, I publicly suggested that they might be the same people with new profiles. Not long after, I was silenced for "having multiple profiles and trolling." I tried multiple times to get a Testimony, a Witness, out of the many "Christians" there. I even shared of my own life multiple times. But very, very few were willing to share something that I have found to be so easily and willingly given in an actual Church setting, which is a huge red flag for me. What true Christian does not rejoice in their Salvation story, the day it happened, how God moved in their lives, or how God is currently moving? They focus more on arguing, belittling, attacking, putting down, than lifting up. And many of them struggle with admitting to having ever sinned at all in their lives and seeking forgiveness. Which is another red flag. I got one begrudging tiny little apology from an Admin, after I pointed out his behavior in the forum, followed by several paragraphs excusing his behavior toward me. Another red flag. He was one of my nonstop assailants. I was banned, or silenced, not too long after this. I can't log in anymore. And I feel that there is a certain cult atmosphere to the website. But you can judge that for yourselves. Very little feels real, authentic, heart felt. In fact, when I spoke of the Law of LOVE, which is often, it was often called warm fuzzy sentiment like they don't understand God's LOVE. They refer to it, but it is overshadowed by the depths of hell, if that makes sense. I was at one point even accused of being a homosexual and told to repent when I never said that I was one or actively engaging, just responding to all the hate they get from far-right groups who picket gay events, using bullhorns and picket signs instead of God's kindness and LOVE. Below is info to what is left of my account. All my posts and threads are now found there under (anon75384934), which you can search for without the parenthesis and pull up under (Activity). My name (TILLMAN) was stripped away and replaced with (anon75384934). You can decide for yourselves if my assessment is wrong or right. Until they erase the profile outright. But I kept copies of everything. I began doing this after my posts were edited without my consent or approval.